Each year a new set of resolutions. Am I going to make or break them? It's hard to say but it will be fun being honest about the wins and losses.


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Friday, September 13, 2013

Where my hope should be found.

There are certain desires that all of us have. The desire to be loved, respected, and treated with kindness.  Mother Teresa said "The most terrible poverty is loneliness, and the feeling of being unloved."

I have to say, I just love people.  I know that sounds corny, but I do.  I love them.  I'm drawn to people and have a desire to get to know them.  I want to be involved in their lives.  I have a huge heart for teenagers and young people.  I love people who have less and I have a huge desire to help people in any way I can.  I've already talked about Camp Daniel and my love for people with disabilities. I'm so glad that God gave me a heart for people. In this pursuit to help  love,  I've developed some amazing friendships.  I'd like to say I've changed lives and made a difference but I wouldn't say that.  I just know that I've been able to get to know and try with whatever gifts God has given me, to serve them in whatever capacity I'm capable of.  

I'm human though and I desire that which is in all of us.  To be loved back.  I look at other people and I can see they find their validation in the wrong places and I think that somehow I have it more together. But when I look at what's really in my heart, I realize that I'm needing validation as well.  I guess I would have always described my love as one that is unconditional. I still do, but I've found that it is really hard when I do not get that love in return.  I feel I "deserve" it some how because of how I am. I had a revelation a couple months ago.  God reminded me that my hope is in him. I've heard it a million times but truthfully it was never true in my life.  God was telling me that no matter who disappoints me that he will be there for me.  That everyone will at some point fall short and my hope has to be in him alone.  It's not a lesson I've mastered. It's something I'm reminding myself of daily.  I've found that as I realize this truth, my friendships and relationships end up better because of it. So I encourage you, try to believe this truth for yourself.  Find your hope in him, and then no matter what anyone else does, love anyway.

“If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives: Be kind anyway. 
If you are successful you will win some false friends and true enemies: Succeed anyway. 
If you are honest and frank people will try to cheat you: Be honest anyway. 
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight: Build anyway. 
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous of you: Be happy anyway. 
The good you do today, will often be forgotten by tomorrow: Do good anyway. 
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough: Give your best anyway.” ― Mother Teresa

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

This run will hopefully help with two of my  resolutions!

My New Job

Well what am I at now? I think resolution #4. You have seen all of my posts about Camp Daniel and I'm sure you now know how much I love it and support it. It was at the end of camp last year, week four, that I had decided life needed to change.  Tony Piantine is one of my biggest mentors and at camp he had asked me if I could be more involved with the Booster Club. He spoke into my life and encouraged me that God had big things in store for my life. I knew that if I was going to help with camp more, I needed to free up some time.  My job last year required long hours!!! Full-time 7:00-6:00pm. I knew that as I drove to work the Monday after camp, that I did not want to be there anymore. I felt life was too short to continue working that many hours. I needed a part-time job. I heard of a job opening at Ferrellgas and applied. So on March 4th 2013, I started my new part-time job. My hours are usually 8:00am-2:30pm with a day off during the week.  Perfect!!! I love the girls I work with. It's been a great transition! I've also been able to spend more time on the booster club. 
Resolution #4-completed

Friday, August 9, 2013

Camp Daniel

I'm not even sure how to start this so I'm just going to I guess. It's week four at Camp Daniel and I'm able to be here the whole week! This week has been amazing! Every year I come to camp, my life changes. I now just come to expect it instead of being surprised by it. What has  made the biggest impact on me this year? It is just how incredible the young people at camp are. The counselors 25 and under are giving up weeks of their summer to serve selflessly and lovingly. How many people their age do that? I'm so proud of the growth I have seen. It's inspiring and challenges me daily to love with all that I am.

Monday, July 22, 2013

"Because one dipping sauce is not enough..."

Becky, Ali, and Duffy
Let's face it.  We all do it.  Everyone has the obligatory "lose weight" resolution.  We tell all our friends we want to lose that stubborn 10lbs, when the truth is it's really 30.  Ok, maybe not "we", I'll own it and say "me".  This was the unwritten article that had Ali and Duffy encouraging me to start my blog. I figured I could document my progress on weight lost and everyone could encourage me or tell me to get my lazy behind off the couch and start exercising.  I'm actually encouraging that by the way.  So how am I progressing with this resolution.  Let's just say I should have started my blog two weeks before my trip to Mexico. (around the end of April).  I was doing great.  Working out everyday. Membership at Planet Fitness.  Eating great and drinking Dr. Oz green shakes.  I lost the first 10lbs. Success!!!  Well its July and I can report that I've gained all 10 back.  Fail!!!  At this point, I'm lucky I haven't gained more.  So last week as Ali, Duffy and I ate at Olive Garden, laughing and talking about my weight loss article, the server approached and asked how many dipping sauces we wanted.  I answered with a resounding "three" because one is just not enough.  "Guess my diet starts next week girls."  Today is Monday, the best day to start a healthier life style.  Today I start again.  Didn't exercise today but ate healthy.  Tomorrow morning will be my first run in about 3 weeks.  Here I find myself at the starting line, yet again.

Thursday, July 11, 2013

I've Sorely Overestimated My Ability...

One thing I have learned these last 7 months is that I've sorely overestimated my ability to 'press on'.

Resolution #3- Lighten up, Press On, Let it go, No Worries, I've got this. - Yeah, something like that.  I had a catchy phrase at one point and can't remember it.  I'm staring at the book I bought two months ago, "Don't Sweat the Small Stuff", and that's the only phrase that comes to my mind now.  So let's address that.  The book... haven't even read one line.  Skimming through it though, leads me to believe it will be perfect for me.

You know how some people just have self destructive tendencies.  Yes, I'm one of them.  I'm Jane from the movie '27 Dresses'.  I have a hard time saying no to people.  I want to please everyone and will go to any lengths possible to do so.  Usually to my own detriment. I love people and I love to make them happy but I'm constantly concerned I'm not doing enough or I'm doing too much or...you get the picture.  Cue the anxiety right?!  I've resolved this year to not get so worried and to free my mind from all of that clutter.  How you say???  Oh I don't know, read the book "Don't Sweat the Small Stuff", go for a run when anxiety starts to kick in, take St. Johns Wart. Oh yeah, I could pray.  At this point I've done so few of these that I really need to be honest and say this resolution is failing fast. I'm finding that this one, is going to be difficult to tackle and yet it is the one that I need to be free from the most.  I feel at times that I don't have what it takes to be able to let things go or let go of the need to make everyone happy. Thankfully I'm surrounded by friends that do not take advantage of me and prefer that I have healthier response than my current one.  They are able to encourage me, that relationships never last with conditions.  Anyone who has conditions, will never be satisfied with what I have to offer them.  Well keeping with the '27 Dresses' theme, learning that I'm so flawed and I'm not who I should be, makes me feel like my favorite quote from the movie. "It's like finding out your favorite love song was written about a sandwich." :)



Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Camp Daniel!

Resolution #2- Get involved as much as I can with Camp Daniel and the booster club.
Camp Daniel is a camp for people with disabilities. It's a place where people with disabilities can spend a week of fun and get to hear the message that God loves them and has amazing plans for their lives. Everyone who goes to Camp has their lives changed. It's an incredible place. Right now Camp is being held at Lake Helen until the grounds at Camp Daniel are completed. Money needs to be raised in order for that to happen. That is how the booster club was formed. Tony has asked me to be in charge and we've had two successful banquets. This year I'm able to go to a couple days, each of the 4 weeks of camp to get others involved. I will be there the entire 4th week. This morning I head to one of my favorite places in the world. 

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

My First Resolution

At the beginning of the year, like so many people, I came up with a list of resolutions.  At the top of the list, was to create a blog so I could document my success and failures.  Well it is now July 9th and I'm just getting to it.  You decide...failure??  Well it is still 2013 and no time like the present to start.  I'm hoping to have fun writing about my accomplishments and lack there of.  Starting 6 months after I should, kind of defines my personality.  I'm a bit of a procrastinator.  Changing that is NOT actually one of my resolutions this year.   So, here we go blog world.  I'm going to give you a try.
Resolution #1-Starts right now